doc was supposed to work last night and i had planned to stay up and nap on the couch and watch BBC news. of course he had to stay home and my fun was ruined. i'm really torn about my feelings for him. we had a discussion about my dandruff again. very humiliating for me. he wants to know how to solve it. my parents and i wanted to know that all through my life. now he thinks i can fix it. i can. shave my head. that's the only solution we've ever found. no dandruff shampoo works, it's just one of those things i live with. until it becomes a thing he picks at. like a scab on my self esteem.