February 28th, 2011

2013, cyd, new

another sunday night

and i'm not dreading it. as soon as the NCIS marathon is over, four episodes of Top Gear come on BBCamerica. i should take a shower at some point, but i don't know if i will.

chloe had another bad day. doc is kind of giving up hope, or facing reality. either, or, it's put him in a poor poor humor. things are tense, i'm glad he had to work tonight. it's better for all involved, i've got an eye on chloe. i'm going to force feed her later since she won't eat. i took a nap on the couch for an hour this afternoon with her on my lap. doc was awake, so it was unusual for me to go to sleep, but the cat on my lap just relaxed me. it's not like doc and i were talking at all. all i wonder is if chloe is in pain. i don't want her to be in pain.

i ironed doc's shirts today. tonight, actually. i didn't do the other things on my list. it's such an effort to do anything. i could just sit here and doze to the tv all day and all night. perking up once an hour to have a cigarette and a drink of water. chloe is asleep on the chair, i could doze for the next 45 minutes and i'm pretty sure she wouldn't sneak off, she seems sound asleep.
2013, cyd, new

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doc acknowledged to me that taking care of chloe is a full time job. following her around so she doesn't hide, trying to get her to eat, now having to force feed her. all that stuff. she had some water, milk and turkey and cheese soft food. when doc gets up we're giving her fluids. i'm going to have to take her back to the vet if she doesn't start eating again.

i'm nervous today. not anxious or panicked, just slightly nervous. i think it's chloe, she's got me on full alert. i'm compounding the problem by drinking coffee. i can't help it, i want to sleep and i can't. plus it's warm in my hands and tastes good, i drink it fast because of that.i'm just now coming to realize that coffee makes me a bit jumpy. so by the time doc gets up i can't sit still.

gotta go, chloe's on the move again.