September 16th, 2010

2013, cyd, new

summer breathes a hot sigh

i think summer is getting tired. it's supposed to cool down next week with no precast of a dooming high that will put us back up to hot. but maybe they just don't want to say. i am way too into the weather.

today was uneventful. i left the house to get the mail. i cleaned out the litterbox. it's all about the glamor.

tomorrow is waking up early and waiting for maintenance to come and check out our dish washer. i hate waiting for maintenance days, hopefully they'll come and take care of it first thing tomorrow while doc is still up and before he wakes me up. i'm going to bed at one instead of two thirty so i'll be awake and not homicidal when he wakes me up in the morning and then doesn't go to bed for an hour. which i highly suspect he will do. i'll be ready for him. heh.

but tomorrow is nap day, so once the whole maintenance thing is done, i can curl up on the couch and cat nap all evening before doc gets up. i wonder if this schedule is ever going to end or if he signed up for it again. maybe he likes it. i don't know, i haven't really talked to him about it. i don't talk to him about much, although we do have conversations. good ones where we laugh and stuff. it's good.

netflix will be here tomorrow. i rented "the island" on the recommendation of someone in chat. i know not to expect a great epic, but i do anticipate a good way to kill an hour and a half.
2013, cyd, new

i was wrong

not only did doc not intentionally wake me up, he stayed up with me until just now. he unintentionally woke me up at around 8 by putting on the venture brothers tape he made. it never fails to wake me up. i stayed in bed until 9 while he ran the vacuum and made other assorted household noises that told me M had gotten up and left already.

shortly after i got up he shouted at me about something, i wasn't following instructions he was giving me, and set off a panic attack. so i sat here and shook until the xanax i took took hold of me. he apologized about it. we talked about it a bit and it was over. short and simple, no harm done. the panic attack ended and i was able to be comfortable around him. i was even bummed when he went to bed.

i told him that he and his alarm clock were on their own tonight, i had every intention of napping the evening away. i told him i was done with the stress for the week and he could get up on his own. he laughed with me and told me he understood.

so i slipped off my new skinny jeans without undoing the button or zipper. that now puts me at a size 32 mens jeans, which is all i wear. i don't like how chick jeans fit me. i don't like high waisted stuff. at least these i can wear on my hips now. but i'm getting too small. i need to go to the big thrift store up the road. it's a bit more expensive, but the selection is better in the smaller sizes. i wonder where my black satin pants are, they'll be loose on me and likely quite comfortable.

still waiting for maintenance. today is landscaping day so i don't think they'll be here today, it isn't like filmy dishes are an emergency. i'm sure there are people with leaks and a/c issues and such that come ahead of us. i'm zen with that. i just hope they can solve the problem. i thought it was the jet dry because it started when we got a new bottle of it, but it's gone now and the film remains. strange.