July 29th, 2010

2013, cyd, new

i don't know what it's like today

my sleep meds aren't working anymore. i only slept four hours last night. then i lay in bed for another four, getting about two more hours sleep this morning. i finally just got up at noon as doc was going to bed.

i just stopped a panic attack with some kitty petting therapy and half a xanax. then i ate so my stomach would stop rumbling and so i could have a cup of coffee.

i've been up for nearly three hours and i can't account for any of them. i know i've got a Burn Notice marathon on tv, that helps everything fade into everything else, i guess.

keeping a grip and letting myself feel is the key. that and xanax for now.