June 27th, 2010

2013, cyd, new

trying something new

i joined an online mental health support forum today and posted a couple of things. i did a lot of reading. i am definitely not alone. i know it's not the out of the house day care program, but those are far away and require a bus pass and our insurance payout is on a percentage basis now so it's not affordable. it is reaching out to others and finding support for myself from others who have similar experiences. i just need to interact now and keep up.

it's saturday night and there is shit all on tv tomorrow morning so i'm trying to stay up late. it's almost 2am. last night i was up until after 4 and i woke up at 10:30 this morning. i'm not getting enough sleep and i don't know what to do about it. i take sleep meds. ambien has no effect on me, so i'm on something else and i swear to god i am so cheerful after a good, full night's sleep. i got at least one this week. i'm hoping tonight is two.