this place is trashed. clutter all over the place. oy. that will change.
i've got my desk all cleaned off (it has three shelves on it) and the stuff on the shelves are cleaned off as well.
i tore through the printer box for the disks. no go. they warned me with the ECT i could lose up to a month before the treatments. and i have. that was part of it. so i think i'm going to contact canon about replacement disks.
i have to stop obsessing about it and just let things happen. stop beating myself up about it and just relax enough for the memories to come back and hope that is one of them.
in the meantime, my room is getting cleaned finally.