June 15th, 2006

2013, cyd, new

it takes patience to be patient

i sold an item on ebay that i can barely remember how to make. i've been crucifying myself over it for the last couple of days. i finally remembered that i have the materials and means to make it and emailed the person back. now the email won't send. i'd scream if doc and the cats weren't asleep.

i just really need to get a grip on things. sounds so easy.
2013, cyd, new

better now

i've calmed down a bit. i stopped trying to remember the last few days and i seem much happier. doc is home with me, which helps. my body has calmed down as well. we reinstated the hospital's drink of choice, sugar free lemonade, and it is agreeing with me. i took care of the things i needed to take care of so i have that off my mind now. now i'm settling in to waiting to see what i'm like now. i'm recalling processes that i was afraid i had lost and learning that what is lost is not that big a deal.

thank you to everyone for everything.