April 10th, 2006

2013, cyd, new

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if i sit here and read websites i can put off my news watching ritual for a little while longer. i really do not lose interest in this movie (fifth element), though it plays over and over while i sleep. the whole thing is candy. eye, sound . . . okay, maybe not dialogue or plot, but it has everything else i look for. as we all know by now. and if i watch it through one more time that is two hours less of CNN i will sit through.

i desperately need to make a list of things to be done today. for some reason i fear boredom today. maybe it is these last few days without a major anxiety incident that has me on edge. i need to chill out.
2013, cyd, new

another Boo entry

piffle, i came in here to look something up. i stopped to open the window and forgot completely about what it was.

so i looked up skinny hamsters. the most useful thing i found was the advice that if he is still eating and drinking and playing, not to worry about him too much. i have to clean his cage today to see that he doesn't have a stomach blockage of any kind. i'm also changing his bedding to a recycled paper bedding that dissolves in water and won't cause any blockages. i had been using just regular paper fluffy chunky stuff. he moves it around and can get it in and out of his cheeks, so i'm not much worried about it.

other than being skinny, he is doing really well. he is completely independent, plays hard, though he still won't play in his wheel, i know the smallness of it compared to the cage of wheeliness he was in, but really. his love for fresh vegetables has grown. they are all i see him eat lately. and he eats them all. i just did a condo check for moldy or dried out veggies and there are none. but i worry he isn't eating his puppy chow so much as just stashing it. i need to get him some chicken flavored dog treats and a new kind of seed mix i've been reading about.

i am so determined to keep Boo healthy. we got him through his injury, the main wound is almost healed and his tummy is healed enough that he likes belly rubs again. he eats out of my hand and doesn't run when he sees me anymore. i guess the memory is short in hamsters.
2013, cyd, new

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i went out and got Boo new seed mix. he loves it. he wouldn't touch seed mix four weeks ago. i also got him some dog biscuits and seed sticks, since they were on sale and he seems to like them. he's now eaten himself to sleep and doesn't even know what is hidden on the lower level of the cage yet. hee.

i have finished my to do list but for one thing. the kitchen. 20 minutes out of my life. so i'm putting it off a little. no harm there.

my attitude change seems to be sticking. i'm trying every day to be a stronger person than the day before. i'm actively trying to get better, not just relying on the meds to do everything. and i am starting to believe for the first time that really is the key. i just didn't really change my attitude in the past, i merely talked about it a lot and hoped for the best. kicking my own ass into gear is definitely for me.

now if i could just get myself to eat or drink the slimfast. i swear i am the fattest anorexic in exsistence.

and what is the thing that makes me able to stand back from some of my stranger behaviors and laugh at them, but not able to change them? it started months ago, i started throwing one ice cube into the sink each time i got ice. a couple of weeks ago i noticed i was saying "good luck" to myself when i did it and one night i didn't do it at all and i had to get back up and get an ice cube and throw it in the sink. and i laughed at myself as i was doing it. but i wasn't able to get the bad vibe out of my head until i threw the cube in the sink. i'm getting plain silly.