January 31st, 2006

2013, cyd, new

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i swear i love doc's job. he talked to one of the pharmacists about the head pounding. it is probably the medications and the sudden taking less of the xanax. i'm still so afraid of getting hooked on it that i won't take it sometimes just to prove i don't need it. i do this every so often. my head is thick, what can i say?

distracting thing, though, like going through life just coming off of nitrous or poppers.

i started to have an episode last night when i went to bed. i don't know what it was, maybe the lack of xanax, but i went out and curled up on the comfy couch and watched muted larry king, i really like his show on mute. but i took a xanax and lay on the couch for a while and tried to keep my shit together until the pill hit me. when it did the pounding in my head went away and the other symptoms i was having went away. then i finally got to bed a couple hours later.

lesson learned. maybe this time it will stick.

someone needs to invent post it notes for the brain.
2013, cyd, new

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lazy day. doc was off. we just spent the day talking and stuff we don't do during the week because his shift is so odd.

and that sums it up. less head pounding. when the lexapro comes, i expect the last of it to go away. the lexapro apparently balances out the two i'm primarily on.

doc is laughing, i must go see why. hee.