December 8th, 2005

2013, cyd, new

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so did bill o'reilly really lose his mind? i mean, to attack comedians doing comedy . . . that's pretty out there. i figured after stewart trounced tucker carlson, the "real" news guys would stay away from him.

the moving dreams have stopped. so i guess i'm making progress with my stuff.

today is cloudy and the cats have surrounded the bottom of my chair. i hope i don't need to get up in a hurry, someone will get stomped.
2013, cyd, new

absent med progress report

one day without geodon, two without lexapro.

i'm feeling fluish and sleepy. so that may have nothing to do with the meds, other than a temporary boost in seroquel.

and i know this isn't the best way to do things, that i should take a bus to the doctor to get more samples before i run out. right. but that isn't happening so i go with the next best thing. and this is it.

i was in a much better place for this to happen, and i credit that almost exclusively for the stability i am feeling.

the rest i credit to knowing tomorrow i will go back to normal.

i didn't do my stretches, but i did do 20 of the most pitiful pushups in the world and 50 crunches. i think the muscles in my arms and abdomen are actually glowing with it.

ann coulter isn't cool enough to be the devil. she's just a swizzle stick with a desire to piss people off.

that's all. =}
2013, cyd, new

now the nitrous trip

at some point an additional ringing starts up in my ears that dances along with my heartbeat. it comes to the front of my hearing when i turn or tilt my head. it is like the final few seconds of a nitrous hit. in all, a fun ride since i don't have to operate heavy machinery.

i think i'm opting out of dinner. tomorrow is grocery day so tomorrow i will make a feast.
2013, cyd, new

honestly

how do these people manage to use the internet?

ever had one of those days where everything just seems to make no damn sense? i keep reading community posts and being convinced it is just someone fucking with the community. i think we are ignoring the obvious pandemic: stupid.
2013, cyd, new

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i finally figured out what the low roaring noise i was hearing comes from: the downstairs sliding glass door!

it would seem my neighbors, including the pregnant one, are chain smokers but don't smoke in the house. this brings such peace to my mind. i hate noises i don't know.
2013, cyd, new

happy frelling holidays

some idiot at the insurance company changed my name from my last name to doc's last name. how fucking impolite! not only is that not my damn name, it isn't the name that is covered by insurance!!!!!

so now, even though i have medicare, i can't see my doctor because apparently the insurance company owes him thousands of dollars.

now, this is after 8 months of this dispute. every month the insurance company calls my doctor. i call the insurance company, they want to talk to doc since we don't have the same last names. so doc calls. listens to their shit about how we owe them and identifies the problem, switch my name back.

so the bill i just got that i was freaking out how to pay is totally invalid.

getting barred from one's shrink the day before the appointment is so not cool. i still have to go in there and get my meds from their sample closet. that is going to be great, getting eyed by the billing woman because i'm nuts so the insurance company must be right, i never exsisted. except for the three years they covered me under the right name.

and to add to that, the billing woman at the office has done the same thing, perpetuating this by sending in the monthly paperwork with the wrong name on it. is there some reason they have my social security number and don't fucking use it?

god i fucking hate everything right now.