November 30th, 2005

2013, cyd, new

know what i'm doing?

someone out there does, since there was a box on my porch this morning with a DVD of the fifth element in it!!!!!!!!!!

so i figured out how to hook the DVD player up to my VCR and now i have my happy movie in glorious stereo, completely uncut. every last detail there!!!!

i'm so happy.

thank you, you cool person you!
2013, cyd, new

too happy

wow, i even know the words to the scenes that were cut out of my copy of fifth element. i'm good. i'm also glad no one is here because i'm so giddy i can't stop myself saying many of the lines.

then i'm thinking past that and realizing i now have the DVD player hooked up to my stereo in my room, where i spend most of my time (it's the acting living room since i used to be in here on the computer but thanks to who may be the same person that gifted me this DVD, i have another computer in the studio now - oy! christmas is any day around here - i see this now)

okay, so if i get my shit together, i have a tv to hook up to the computer in the studio. and now i can listen to my new christmas CD (all the rockabilly i could find on the theme and a few classics) on my big stereo instead of my computer speakers. the technology domino effect.

this now gives up three remotes in one room but i'm pretty adept at melding two together and the stereo remote has a little slot on my desk so it is never misplaced.

but how does corbin know, as he says to the priest when they meet, that leeloo had no identification that the police could tell? if that is the biggest mistake i can find in this movie . . . all the better. =}
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2013, cyd, new

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i Love freeze frame!!!

yes, i'm still watching it. though i'm actually doing many things, the DVD still plays, i come into my room and watch for a bit then go clean something.

i'm still thinking about putting my pink xmas tree up. it would be a shame not to use the strand of lights i found from last year that never made it up to my ceiling.
2013, cyd, new

yesterday

i'm grounded

remember last night i said i let two girls in and let them give their speil?

bad cydniey.

i'm not to let anyone in i don't know. people out there prey on people like me. they could have been friends of my brothers. bad bad bad.

today my keys are gone. hrmph. i'm going for a walk tomorrow. doc wants me to get a ride from R, which is why my keys are gone today because i refused to ask R for a ride. i can't ask people for things usually. it takes a lot. sometimes, even if people offer things, i will say no just out of politeness. R has a standing offer to take me somewhere if i need it.

anyway, then he tells me we are going to the dentist and taking the bus. we're taking the bus together and he has done the busses, so he is familiar with the stop and the route and everything. i'm just being a scaredy cat.

i hate it when i get caught using bad judgement, especially when i see nothing wrong with it at the time. then later i realize how incredibly i misread things sometimes.

things that remind me i'm not normal bug me no end. i can't be trusted sometimes. doc doesn't tell me that, he is very patient when i am adamant about things i don't remember but did happen, or vice versa . . . but i know it. i know there are rules i have to follow to keep out of day care. especially with our new insurance, they will pay for day care. and that is nothing i want anything to do with. i hate my peers, i can't stand crazy people. i can't stand myself half the time.

i stay home and do my home stuff. and i have an art studio with unending supplies for almost anything i can make. and i have movies and tv (cable internet is cheaper if you have basic cable, so we do) and plenty of things to keep me busy. there is no reason to go wandering off or answering the door to strangers.

yeah, i sound like an 8 year old. but that is about where my judgement and character analysis pretty much stopped. i got to a point where i didn't question anything i just acted. questioning meant thinking about it. now i have trapped myself in that time.

i can't wait to start seeing a psychologist and start getting over the issues. the medication can only do so much. as we have seen, if even one component of my medication is messed up i fall all apart. so i know that if the medication weren't here, i'd be a fucked up mess. i need to clean some of that mess.
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2013, cyd, new

financial non woes

finally, i said it and it was true, this month we got by to rent and bills without me having a small heart attack (i obsess, you may have noticed). nothing hainging over our heads that won't be taken care of next week without late fees.

i have such a feeling of calm over this. extra money from december will go to a gift for doc's parents. something small and meaningful, like a framed photo of our wedding. i'll just need to get the photo copied and enlarged, i already have a frame for it.

in january, monkeynamedjack.com will be up and fully functional. i'm thinking of putting a bulletin board up and posting tutorials for stuff. or maybe i'll just post tutorials on a non commenting page so i don't have to look after a bbs.

i'll also start with the spring and summer jewelry (since i like working with bright colors) and keep making books. oh and i also have to do some suncatchers for mnj. i'm hoping this summer they will really catch on, so i'm going to make a bunch of them in the winter months.
2013, cyd, new

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i think i might finally be feeling the effects of coffee. because usually i'm getting ready for bed and right now i'm bouncing off the walls. though it has been a good night.

and if i didn't mention it before, thank you for the fifth element!!

i've watched it three times today, what can i say, crap tv.
2013, cyd, new

uvula, i love that word

my uvula has been touching the back of my tongue for a couple of weeks now. it is driving me crazy. at first it was a gagging thing, i'm not actually gagging anymore but constantly swallowing. is this thing really neccessary?

ETA: either an allergy thing or a sinus thing. ibuprophen if a sinus thing, allegra if an allergy thing. cool. i love google
2013, cyd, new

meme thing

snurched from spiderdust:

the wish list meme

Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered... whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two:
- Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:
- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.


1. i want kam316 to move back here
2. i want my sister to move back here
3. i want my nana to live another ten years so i have time to make up for time lost
4. i want my parents and brothers to not be an issue anymore
5. i want to be strong again
6. i want an art clay kit from firemountaingems.com
7. i want doc to go see his parents
8. i want out of this neighborhood
9. i want all my friends to have a great holiday and year
10. i want a laptop