July 1st, 2005

2013, cyd, new

get it down quick

i went to five high schools and had two high school sweethearts, so to speak (three if you count the lovely to-be-gay boy - i still love K) i ripped the ego from two young men for no good reason. i was unbalanced, crazed, selfish and melodramatic. oh, and needy, very very needy (yes, some things do not change)

one of these blokes i have the good fortune to be friends with now, 20 years later. mwsmedia just rocks my world. he grew up pretty good.

the other, PE, i don't know. the falling out was intense and there was much acrimony for years. to be honest (and reveal how horrible a person i really am) i don't remember much of either relationship or the life surrounding them. MWS has helped me piece together my time with him. i've never been that lucky with PE.

yeah so what?

i dreamt of PE last night. one of my "sonic the hedgehog" running and gathering adventure dreams.

i woke up wishing more than anything i could apologize to PE. not that i think that would help, it didn't with GC. but now it is out there.

the people next door moved out in the middle of last night. i heard every bump and crash. why i don't just take the fucking xanax when i feel insomnia arrive is beyond me. i have this competitive thing building, "i don't need no stinking xanax" and this scientology nonsense has just made me more self concious of the drugs.

but then, if i had had the benefit of these drugs in high school, there are many people i may still count as a friend.
2013, cyd, new

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instead of passing petitions about the justices . . . why not make a real difference?

ladies, stop putting out with the boys. until they come up an effective birth control for men, and laws for choice, stop doing it!

that will get more attention faster than anything else i can think of. the homosexuals will be the only happy people and male lawmakers desperate to get their nookie back.
2013, cyd, new

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a few months ago in a fit of paranoia, i used a program to friend protect all of my lj entries for the past 4+ years.

i'm opening many of them back up. so this journal will be fun again.
2013, cyd, new

damn my curly hair

i just found a picture of my haircut, but shorter and it looks so cool
but my hair is naturally curly
and curly is not punk
never has been
rarr

happy independence weekend

i need to make friends here who want to go to punk rock yoga
2013, cyd, new

=}

doc is here this evening.
and if it weren't still over a hundred degrees,
i'd have begged him to take me to first friday
but i wouldn't make it from the car park to the galleries
before melting into a puddle of bitchiness and disorientation

there is one every month, clever timekeepers

i struck out with the punk rock bingo
he couldn't stop laughing
stupid hippie