too much xanax and
i'm right back where i started
and i cried so hard
when i thought it would make it all stop
i rock back and forth
and the veil comes down
and some of the spinning stops
things get darker
i start to feel comfortable
it's when this stops working
that i finally give in and hurt myself
it used to be about power
power over my pain and frustration
but not it is just about the pain
pain there to reminds me
when one heals another follows
and i can't stop because
i don't want to stop
i want to let it out
i want to get it out of me
the rocking only helps so much
the motion of my body
the phasing out of my brain
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pick a word
and put it down
quickly,
before it escapes
put it on paper
and more will come
capture them
as they flit through
get them down
they will flow
they will make some
sense eventually
grab a metaphor
and put it down
do it now
before you lose it
write it down
and more will come
capture it
as it flies through
get it down
they will flow
they will make some
sense eventually