desperately lonely and helpless and useless. that is me. doc and i talked and will be doing some things to change it. the main thing i want is to get my social security card so i can get my driving liscense. R said i could use her spare truck if i had a liscense. i wouldn't use it much but it would make my life a lot easier. and it would give me something to do, a way to go out if i have to. it is getting too hot to go walking. i have to get to the social security office early in the morning. if we do it tuesday after next and take the bus routes i've laid out, it will take ten or so hours, but it will be done. but i swear if i can find a ride that can be bribed, i'm all over that. R offered to take me to see blondie for my birthday, but without ID i can't take her up on that. her new job keeps her at work from early in the morning until evening. damnit, or, as i prefer, dammit.