i came right in and took a xanax for the frazzled feeling i just mentioned. but i didn't get it in time. full on panic attack. balls. i wish doc was home.

this is where i tell myself that this is just one day, one time and that i'm fine. this is where i repeat that it takes time. i repeat it until i believe it. this is where i have to do that. and when i have done that for a while i will feel better.