i haven't seen R for two days. i can't let her see me like this. doc was insistent last night and i ended up crying hysterically and accusing him of trying to make me lose friends. the things that man puts up with.
last night i shaved all the pills off my blanket. it is much softer now and it killed a couple of hours.
i have to get out of this victim mentality. i know that. i am taking this medication thing way too personally. but i haven't found a way to distance myself yet.