i've just discovered some little address book features and updated my addresses, and not just email addies. i'm so tired of having to look up or look for the address of someone i mail stuff to. the mails still hasn't gone out but it has grown from two packages to five. and i'm getting the paypal card out of him tonight since he can't remember to leave it in the morning. i'm tired of this, money and stuff sitting for no damn reason at all. aloofness to the here and now is a problem in this home. things get put off until . . . until bad things happen. a ticket has escaladed into something ugly. i could just go on. but i won't. everyone has their challenges in their relationships when it gets this close. it comes down to i need to pay attention. and since the upping and levelling out of the medication, i feel i can do that. most of what i organized today was bills, reciepts and other stray pieces of paper, removing things from 2003 from our bulletin board and organizing that crap. crap crap crap crap crap . . . i am in the war against crap. and each piece i get to burn is a feather in my already gaudy hat!!! oh, and considering i've had 5 smokes to stretch through the day, i'm awfully perky.