he wants something i do not. so it has finally come down to i can't make decisions for myself. i didn't marry my dad, i married a blend of both parents. now it is all going to fall back on "she really can't take care of herself, i really need to be making the decisions for her". and do we run forever like my parents did. like my sister does? we all have places we'd like to run from. but it doens't make ANY difference. you are you and i am i no matter where we are. there we are.
maybe i should just sit back and watch it all happen around me. maybe i should fight the madness less. maybe i should just relax and be grateful that i don't have to make big decisions. just make my little things and be happy with it. i wonder which medication does that.