and something finally clicked in my head. so i'm not wearing a shirt and pants that are three sizes to big for me today. today i am wearing clothes that fit me, although snug, the snug is in the cut and i actually look much smaller than i do in the baggies, think i would learn that eventually.
a bit dark but you can make out my shape against the shadowy chaos of the studio.
and it should be noted that the belly bloating finally went down. i still have a chubby belly, but it isn't looking like i've got a bun in the oven.
i need to be more real with myself, and stop seeing myself as my (200 lb heavier) mother.