it is really the paranoia. that is what fucks me up the most, the fastest. being afraid of things that should not even phase me. obsessively worrying about things i know are stupid (yesterday's fear of the place burning down while we were out was completely misplaced, as i could actually remember there was nothing left burning). it bothers the shit out of me. it makes me disconnect. so no one can hurt me . . . or no one can trigger me to hurt myself. i can't let anyone in when i'm like this. and in fact push everyone away. that is another part of the paranoia i don't like. and how all consuming it can be, yet so subtle.
it is really the paranoia. that is what fucks me up the most, the fastest. being afraid of things that should not even phase me. obsessively worrying about things i know are stupid (yesterday's fear of the place burning down while we were out was completely misplaced, as i could actually remember there was nothing left burning). it bothers the shit out of me. it makes me disconnect. so no one can hurt me . . . or no one can trigger me to hurt myself. i can't let anyone in when i'm like this. and in fact push everyone away. that is another part of the paranoia i don't like. and how all consuming it can be, yet so subtle.
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