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i sent my manuscript off to an old friend to go over. so there are two copies out there being looked over. if i get them in time i may make it a real book for NANOWRIMO. if not, i'll do Art By The Inch for november. kam316 will be here for at least half of november, she'll be inspiring.

if i do NANOWRIMO with it i'll have to do a lot of remembering and filling in detail. but that is what the manuscript needs. it really is a chubby outline hung on journal entries. it could be so much more. i just don't know yet if it should be so much more. the story is interesting enough, people write books about it all the time. mental illness sells, baby. but really, it isn't like i plan to fish this out for publication, i'll be publishing it myself.

i just want to get the story out of me and onto the page. but it may be bigger than the one trip to the hospital. maybe i need to go into other visits to hospitals for the same issues. i have journals from other incarcerations. i don't know. i'll have a better idea once i get it back and look over it and the comments and corrections.

i don't want to cloud it. and i need to learn more about ECT so i can tell the story of that properly. i really glossed over it and it is the most important part of the story. and the more time goes by, the more of the story i lose.

i think i'll work on my altered book once i get the spare computer out of here. i need to decide soon if i'm going to do the whole book, or if i'm going to glue a couple hundred pages together and carve out a compartment. i could do that and make it big enough for ATCs (artist's trading cards, art at the size of a playing card). then if i ever sell it i can sell the cards and the book together. that's really the only way i'd sell rather than trade my cards. i could put in the set of 6 cards that piece together to form a journal entry i once wrote in a spiral pattern as i had a breakdown. very cool looking, little verbal substance, i always say the same things when i'm melting.

more imporantly, i need to do something artistic and photoshop has just not been calling to me, i've tried a couple of times, but nothing i saved. i even played with the graphics disks i have. nothing. i lost my inspiration folder and i'm being very slow in rebuilding it. i only belong to a couple of image communities. i usually find things done by my lj friends go well in that folder. a folder i can just look through whenever i need visual stimulation beyond mila jovovich's mostly nakey body from the fifth element.

i guess i need to surf the web in a more visual mindset. everything is video or sound. so few still images. and i need my inspiration kit! i need that folder of things that just struck me to look through.

time to go find those things for a while.

these are two pieces that kam316 did for me:

i am representing kam316 at my ebay store, because i'm luckier than you.

if you are interested, and you should be, some of her art is finally available to the public.

simply go here and check them out, all are ready to frame.

kam316 online art gallery

new art galleries up, check out number 8

though my personal faves are the "boxed" set (7); the string theory series rocks my proverbial socks.

completely inspired by artworkslive's work. not the same, i'm more attatched to symmetry, but inspired by her gorgeous and impressive collages.



it is also the smallest piece i've done, outside of ATCs . . . and i have to say, having less space to fill makes it much easier to fill it and i don't have to worry about scale, it is all right on scale. meant to be seen close up, whereas my previous work was meant to make an impression from a distance.

mother goddess doll


small bamboo stick bound notebook, 10 pages with vintage illustration on cover



small book, handmade papers and hemp and beads

i tried to explain to doc, sometimes it is just nice to have the goddess on your pillow at night, or to pick her up and talk to her.

i wanted to make dolls. i am not at all ready to work with arms and legs and faces. so i made the dolls i dreamed about last night, with the shape of gaia decorated with various pretty things.

original sketch by fatwizard, applied to ecru silk and mounted on black fabric coreboard.

i decided that the focal point i can't get around in the living room is the one that the room is now to be built around. a royal blue lamp with a victorian curved and fringed ecru shade.

so the room is to be cream and royal blue and black. i think that may be the answer to the heavy wood furniture i've been looking for. the hope chest would look really good royal blue with cream details on it, and so would the other cabinet, those being the biggest pieces in the room, if i just painted them, it would pull the room together. plus it goes with the blue and black in the kitchen, since most of the places we would live would have open kitchens. that is all the rage here.

so finally i made something for me.

hematite tube and miracle bead necklace
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leather lined decorative trinket box
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thanks for looking

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i found the neatest black and red marble beads, so small and delicate, but i think the design is strong

michaels had small wooden boxes in the clearance isle this week, so i picked a few up.

i had ordered a grab bag of scrapbooking stickers with my stickerplanet.com $10 coupon for having their link on my page (you can put it on your lj page and get one for yourself!).

and i always have some sort of left over paint around and marble gems.

combine, stir and viola!

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i decorated the tin i got for my paper making tools:


and i made personalized links from some old links the jewels had fallen off of. the foggy part is laquer that isn't yet dry.

i was watching an auction for one like the "freak" one, $5 . . . fuck that, these were free. there is also one that says "speak". one of my italian charm bracelets says "mad diy vox" in pink letters, i want to put these between those words.

oh, and i did some hand felting last night and made a wristband from a piece of it. it is up at the ebay store.

120 pages in goldenrod

hand made blue paper, beige silk cover and back

you may be able to tell i'm really getting into this medium. two holes drilled in the bottom keep the air flowing, the leaves do not cover the holes, so it is as functional as it is beautiful

may i present: earth and sky - a miracle of silk leaves, glass gems, silver glitter and hemp cord . . . and of course a gorgeous blue bottle.


bottom detail


front


back, showing split ring leash attatched to the back with a glass gem

smoking bottle ashless incense burner

this isn't one of the ones for 1000_journals, this is one i am doing on my own, filling up a really old sketch book that i never really sketched in. the paper is think and i figured i could do a lot to it

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